Body confidence and summer holidays seem to go hand in hand. It frustrates me that it’s a thing, but I cannot help but feel affected by it. I automatically think, sh*t, will my bikinis from last year fit? Do I need to buy loads more bikinis to keep up with the trends? What if my belly looks pale and podgy? It may sound horrible to think of myself in this way, but I’m all about being honest on this blog and I don’t want to sugar coat it and make you all believe that I can’t wait to slip into a bikini! No matter your size, it’s okay to feel unconfident – especially as confidence is something that is relative to you.
Before my summer holiday to Mallorca this year, I felt incredibly nervous about the way my body looked. After I lost around a stone two years ago, slowly quite a bit of this weight has gone back on and I just feel bigger. It’s important to note that what might not seem ‘bigger’ to someone else seems ‘bigger’ to me, just because I got so used to this new body.
Whilst I do feel sad about my weight fluctuation, these feelings were definitely heightened because I knew I was going on holiday. I’ve not got another holiday coming up now and whilst I’m not currently 100% happy in my skin, I don’t feel that constant daily pressure and sadness like I did pre-holiday. It’s sad really, as the pre-holiday vibes should be fun and exciting!
The pre-holiday body anxiety is WAY worse than when you’re actually there.
The main point of this post is that as soon as you actually get to your holiday destination, people literally don’t care. You don’t know anyone and everyone else in your resort is minding their own business. Interestingly, I didn’t have to keep reminding myself that other people didn’t care, because I got to a point where I just didn’t care anymore. I felt more relaxed that I was there and having a good time, so my body confidence just gradually improved and my anxiety surrounding it faded away. It sounds silly, but faking it until you make it always works for me. Walk to the pool bar or nip to the loo in your bikini as if you feel super confident, and naturally this facade will become reality. Also, I tried to remember that people in my hotel didn’t know my entire weight loss story. They wouldn’t have known that I put on a bit of weight again, because what they saw is the only version of me that they know.
What’s most important is that you don’t need to let these feelings ruin your holiday. Enjoy those cocktails, eat all the all-inclusive food and leave those pre-holiday body confidence nerves on the plane where they belong! Sometimes life gets in the way, for me it was final year of university, and I just have to accept that my weight will fluctuate at stressful points in my life.
If you are going on a summer holiday, I hope this post is reassuring to know that you CAN still feel good on holiday – even if it’s not as great as you’ve always felt about yourself.
How do you deal with body confidence worries before a summer holiday?