I like to think that I’m the type of person who thinks big and strives to achieve. I’m also the type of person who’s a bit of a perfectionist and has a lot of admiration for other people’s skills and talents. I’m also the type of person to look into the future, maybe sometimes a bit too much, and don’t live in the moment enough.
This can have its challenges and to be quite honest has a big effect on various areas of my life, from my career, to my appearance and of course to my blog and Instagram. Sometimes it can be quite demotivating, but you know what, it shouldn’t be!
A new job
Since starting a new job, I’ve grown confident on more tasks and feel my skills are developing greatly, which I’m so proud of. But of course, there are going to be tasks thrown at me that are so new to me. This can be daunting, especially when I panic that I might not be able to deliver it perfectly the first time round. I panic how I’ll ever manage to lead a meeting and provide clients with their latest I wonder why I can’t be as good as others and how they manage to do it so amazingly, but then remember that they’ve been in the industry for a longer amount of time and have more years of experience.
I’m still learning, and that’s okay, and I will continue to grow and develop. Plus, no one is expecting me to do everything to the highest standard ever the first time round! The most important thing is my managers wouldn’t give me more intense and challenging tasks if they knew I wasn’t capable.
My blog and Instagram
When it comes to my blog and Instagram, it can be so hard not to fall into that deep, dark hole of comparison and struggling to dig my way out. There are so (SO) many talented ladies out there who I follow and admire, when it comes to their photography, writing style and sheer dedication to creating amazing content. Sometimes it makes me guilty for not trying hard enough or not being able to grow at the same speed. I wonder why people don’t like me or don’t want to follow me. I wonder why my Instagram followers have only grown by approx. 400 in the past year. I know I’ve been at uni, but I just want to know what I could be doing wrong.
Despite having a small following, there’s still so much I have to be proud of. I spend my spare time pouring my heart into my blog and Instagram posts, as well as facing my fears to get more fashion content (which is a huge achievement for me in itself). I still have a lot of confidence issues when it comes to fashion photography, but I am definitely way more confident than I used to be.
I’m also trying hard to keep my Instagram feed looking consistent in terms of a theme, but this can still be difficult when every photo has different lighting, colours, etc to start with. I just need to try and remember that my confidence will continue to grow and no Instagram photo is perfect, but hopefully I will see positive results from the slight changes I’m making.
It can be a difficult time when all we want to do is rush our success and achieve our goals, but everything does take its time. And isn’t that almost what’s most rewarding? In five years or so I can look back and say wow, look how far I’ve come and how bloody hard I’ve worked to get here.
Do you struggle with accepting that success takes time?